I had a good cry the other night. I was so frustrated from waking up all night and being uncomfortable that I felt like screaming. I’m so sick of this. Surgery is 17 days away and I know that having THAT one isn’t going to make this uncomfortable situation any better… I’ll likely be dealing with the discomfort of the Bilateral Mastectomies and Tissue Expanders in ADDITION to the hot flashes and night sweats.
I’ve been keeping my chin up and staying strong knowing that I’m making the right choices but I am human. I’m scared and I wish that I didn’t have to deal with any of this, but I do. I’m just trying to take one day at a time. Sometimes a good cry helps, then I can move on.
On another note, I’ve been off the Remifemin (black cohosh supplement) since Friday (4 days ago) and don’t notice the symptoms to be any worse. I am missing my green tea and chamomile tea though! Once the surgery is over, I can go back to my favorite hot beverages but may not go back to the supplement if it doesn’t help anyway.
As for now, I just got word that school is canceled due to snow for tomorrow so if I’m up all night, at least I can relax and catch up on some sleep tomorrow.
Staying positive and choosing life!
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